Why You Need to Be HONEST With Yourself! (PERSONAL)

This afternoon I spent some Me Time: I watched 2 films back-to-back. And for the past 5 hours I profoundly enjoyed myself! 😁

But as I walked upstairs this evening, I felt there was a problem. “I rarely ever watch 2 films in a row…But I feel like if I had stayed on the living room couch I’d would’ve watched 2 more!” 🤨

I thought to myself, “This isn’t normal for me. Something is not right…”🤔

What I mean to say is that in all of 2018 I’ve only watched a FEW films in total, something that is extremely out of the ordinary for me! But even with a part of my mind saying, “You stayed productive and worked hard this year so you deserve this“, I still felt bothered. I wasn’t agreeing with my rational mind!

I thought more about it and as I typed this Facebook post the realizations started surfacing from within…⬇️

Reflecting back on 2018, there’s a lot I set out to do and achieve. And I have in fact achieved a lot that I’m proud of. I’m so grateful for it all, and I know 2019 will be even greater. These things I’m very certain about! 👍

But this evening I was still bothered! After some more thinking, I starting to understand why very clearly. It wasn’t rocket science, but it had always been swimming underneath the surface of my thoughts.

But before I even share with you all what that is, I expect some people who will be reading this post are going to disagree with me here. And that’s fine of course! There are many big influencers in the entrepreneurial community who will say what I did these past 5 hours was: “a complete waste of time“, “lazy“, “unproductive“, and “worthless“. 👊

But I’m going to draw a line here with their sentiments.

Have you ever had a hobby that made you feel fulfilled every time you engaged in it? Regardless of it “being profitable“, is there something you love to do not because of money but because it “lights you up“? Confession: That’s me with my relationship to art, especially film. 🎥

I’ve had a very soft spot in my heart for films as long as I can remember. As a teenager I wanted to become a filmmaker. In fact, I almost went to college for a Film degree! But instead, I went for a “profitable” IT degree instead!

Regardless, I’ve always loved how films could be used as a form of art, to take an audience to new worlds, to assist people in experiencing emotions they wouldn’t feel in their everyday lives.

I have another confession: I’ve made short art films myself! 😲

So in my heart there’s always been in Artist in me. It’s not limited to film either. I also love photography and how an image can say a thousand words. I love the abstraction of paintings like Jackson Pollock. 🎨

The only difference now is any art I express these days is more often reflected in my writings, like the one you’re reading now. It’s why I will so often edit and tweak my writings, to produce the greatest impact on my readers. I’ve never written a post like this without some form of nuance from a film or a piece of music sparking it!

It’s funny how paradoxically doing a passive activity can blossom an active one in the mind! 👨

What hit me this evening was how much I’ve willingly cut off watching movies this past year, something that really fulfills me, all in the name of embracing echoes from other leaders: “it is unproductive“, “it is a waste of time“, “it is procrastination“.

I declared to myself at the beginning of 2018: “If IT doesn’t benefit my long-term future, IT no longer matters in my life.” But now I’m saying I was wrong. 💬

In hindsight, I believe I spoke too definitively on that statement. Film does matter to me. Creating art through many mediums does matter to me. As someone who used to watch a lot films, I’ve watched only a few this entire year. Some people may want to tell me: “That’s a great job! You kept busy! Keep up the hustle!” But there’s a big part of me now that more powerfully is saying: “You’ve deprived a part of yourself, Donald. It’s why you’d sit down this evening and watch 6 more films if you decided! You’ve tried to suppress a part of you that you didn’t need to ‘get rid of.’ It’s time to reclaim that part back into your life!” ❤️

I share this with you this evening because these are lessons I’m still learning myself. And sometimes these lessons continue to repeat themselves because I haven’t fully embraced them yet! My hope is for those of you who read this or who are going on similar journeys to heed the words I’m saying:

📌 Every famous entrepreneur has a formula for “success”. It doesn’t mean it has to be yours or will always suit you the best.

📌 Hold onto the things that fulfill you. Achievements are great in the short-term, but fulfillment is your long-term fuel for happiness.

📌 Be in touch with your inner voice. Don’t lose yourself in the Game of Molding to become someone you’re not.

As 2019 approaches, I’ve gained some new lessons I’ll be applying far more in this coming year. Do something today your future self will thank you for. ❤️ #TranscendLabels

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